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It is Puzzling Isn’t it?

At age forty five I found myself living as a single parent with six year old son. I was offered a housing commission home, which is cheaper housing provided by the government.

I had to accept this at the time. It was in a suburb that was ‘rough’. It seemed to be a regular event of dysfunction happening. Domestics, violence, and generally not a safe place to live.

I entered this house ready to make it my home. I said to my Father God, “You are going to have to protect us here”. I decided that the situation I found myself in was just a stepping stone to where I really wanted to be.

Within the first week I got to know the area and the neighbours. The house didn’t have a back door screen and I left the door open on one hot day and a puppy wandered in. He was next doors dog and wanted to say hello. At that point I named the house my tent.

That week I read the prayer of Jabez and it just seemed to fit my situation.

1 Chronicles 4:10:(kjv)

And Jabez called on the God of Israel, saying, "Oh that Thou wouldest bless me indeed and enlarge my borders, (One version said tent) and that Thine hand might be with me and that Thou wouldest keep me from evil, that it may not grieve me!" And God granted him that which he requested.

This also was my prayer. After living there for a year (yes God protected us and I could write a book on the things that happened). I said to God “It’s a puzzle that we are still here. I would have liked to be out of this situation by now.”

I bought a 1000 piece jigsaw puzzle. I put it on my table and got excited about getting it all out and putting the pieces together. It was a puzzle of Times Square in New York City.

I did that puzzle on a regular basis each day and it just seemed to relax me. I did however find after a while I had to go and buy reading glasses as the pieces were small and I had trouble seeing them. I had reached the time in my life where I needed help to see more clearly and new glasses were the solution.

My son Joshua got interested in seeing this puzzle come together, so he also started to do the puzzle with me.

When I was at work on the puzzle I thought about how this puzzle was like my life. It was a disjointed mess, but I had hope of it becoming a complete picture. I couldn’t see what God might be doing in my life but I knew I had to trust Him.

This puzzle was a slow process and a month into working on it; I met my husband to be... Dan.

Dan, Joshua and I completed the puzzle and we all put the very last piece in together! God is good!! When I started the puzzle it was a confused mess like my life. When I finished the puzzle God had bought a partner to come along side me and showed me how He had planned my life to come together. The picture would change and be a great outcome, more than I expected or hoped for!

My Completed Puzzle

I was so excited. My life paralleled this puzzle.

We don’t always see the ‘full picture’ and we need to get some ‘new glasses’ to see what is going on. We need to trust God will work in our lives and give us the desires of our hearts..

I was physically and emotionally in a bad place... but I hung onto hope which worked through my faith to bring it all together. The ‘work’ was trusting, believing and looking out for opportunities. Analyzing my attitude and doing something about it.

In our anger management course in Session One Dan says:

'We cannot change our life for the better,

If we do not understand the one we are experiencing now.'

We need to take a good hard look at what is happening. We may need to get some ‘new glasses’ to look at life from a different point of view, (refer to my vibe on a different point of view).

We may need to seek to find the puzzling pieces and put things in their right place.

When we analyze our lives we may see some ‘pieces’ that don’t belong. We need to look at our thinking, our feelings and our behavior. We need to get to know ourselves, our reactions, and responses and take responsibility.

It’s not easy. Where I lived was not easy, at times I was scared, unsettled and felt desperate. But, I had hope and I knew where I was, was just a stepping stone to God's plan for my life.

I now live in a beautiful suburb where the ‘tent’ has been extended to a healthy environment, a lovely home and I am happily married to an amazing man.

The picture is complete and looks great. I will still be working on ‘me’ as I need to be responsible for my life. But there is always hope. I have a God who guides and blesses me, I attend a fantastic church, have a beautiful family and great bunch of friends.

Where are you at with your Puzzle? Is it a mess? Trust God! One side of a tapestry looks very messy, but when completed, turn it over and see…a magnificent picture.

It does’t happen overnight... but it does happen.


Proverbs 3:5 (nkjv)

' Trust in the LORD with all your heart;
And lean not on your own understanding.'

The message bible explains this verse even more...

' Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don't try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go;  he's the one who will keep you on track. Don't assume that you know it all. Run to God! Run from evil! Your body will glow with health; your very bones will vibrate with life! Hon our God with everything you own; give him the first and the best. Your barns will burst, your wine vats will brim over. But don't, dear friend, resent God's discipline; don't sulk under his loving correction. It's the child he loves that God corrects; a father's delight is behind all this.'


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